An untitled poem...for now...

Years of moonless nights leading into the new day
Visions of the young seen clearly in shadowy array
Spoken with eyes bent around shoulders in the road
Night's forgotten forte meshing together a new mode
Seen by lips filtered in on an instantly innocent affair
Captivating moments found a seemingly unique flair

Movie Time!

Today presented itself with cloudy weather, a 30% chance of rain and isolated thunderstorms. Yours truly deemed that good enough to take the walk and seek out cheap movies for a marathon! Oh yeah!

Arrived at Half-Price Books and yours truly did acquire the following used movies, all on VHS for ungodly cheap prices:

1. Chinatown(with Jack Nicholson)
2 to 5. All Brian De Palma movies(oh yeah!): Mission Impossible, The Untouchables, Snake Eyes and Carlitos Way
6. The Shawshank Redemption
7. Waterworld

Yours truly has seen all of these before but most have not been seen in ages so it will be fun. Not bad for twenty bucks, eh?

And the Dominos pizza has just arrived so I must be off!

Oh and yours truly did make it home dry. Skies looks somewhat threatening so it became a fast walk! :)

Trust...

The past few days this has been on my mind...TRUST...without it what do we really have? What are we left with once trust has been destroyed? If a person has been dishonest about something(which they consider a small thing) it raises a question...what else have they been dishonest about? Other "small things", big things, medium things? Who knows?

Just because one forgives another does not mean that trust is regained. They do not go hand in hand...forgiveness and trust.

Truly, without trust we have nothing...

These old legs...

...are tired! LOL!

Today I did something I enjoy doing when I can and that is taking a nice walk out in the sun. The sun was out and was stunning. :) It was accompanied by a cool breeze which actually felt cold once one was out of the sunlight. That occurred only when I arrived at the shopping center however.

Spent a long time inside Half Price Bookstores looking at books and movies(mostly movies). Lately they seem to never have the movie(s) I am looking for. But today I did see some cheap VHS's on sale at $1.00 each. Yep. One cannot beat that now can one? So yours truly indulged himself and got two powerful movies, both of which he has seen but both of which he would love to see again. "Dead Poets Society" with Robin Williams and "A Few Good Men" with Tom Cruise and Jack Nicholson. Great stuff! Cannot wait to do the respective viewings! Oh, and I had a 10% coupon so actually I paid $.90 each! Frugal eh?

The post movie acquisition time was spent outside a Starbucks Coffee drinking a Starbucks coffee under the stunning sun which as has already been stated was accompanied by a cool breeze. It was almost like being in LA. Truly beautiful weather here today. I sat there at that table drinking that Starbucks coffee as the sun worked its ways on me. The serotonin levels smiled back at the sun. :) And the cool breeze gently brushing past the skin was like icing on a cake. Yummy.

So now these old legs ache a bit as I drink the cold remnant of that wonderful Starbucks coffee. Maybe laundry will be postponed a bit...

:)

Hello again...

It's time again to write. It's been a long time to be sure. Why the dry spell? Cause I had a dry spell. Personally I have been drying up since November but I recently dried up altogether. Since I last blogged here I have blogged elsewhere a few times. But I like this place better in terms of user friendliness. So here I go again.

Historically whenever I do things which are not good for me I do them too much and/or too long. Long ago I should have stopped my involvement in something that has been a roller coaster ride, to say the least. I am at fault for not getting off long ago. I stayed on the ride until I got sick from nausea due to the low turns it took. The ride became disgusting. I became disgusting. I did not respect boundaries which is something I normally do. I allowed myself to be strung along for a ride which was doomed to crash eventually. I knew this since November. Yet I rode.

However time brings clarity. Time shows each of our true colors. Good and bad. It all comes out eventually. I am not very proud of my behavior the past few months. But they say everything happens for a reason. And a very recent "everything" will make it easier to not get back on the ride. I may be tired of the roller coaster but beyond all of that it now disgusts me.

Sometimes...

Sometimes no matter how much I want to write I cannot. Sometimes no matter how much I want to speak I cannot. Sometimes all that is expressed is silence. I think sometimes that is ok.

New Years Day resolutions or a start...

This year I made 3 New Years resolutions. Then I have added a 4th that was on last years list of resolutions and also which a friend so pointedly pointed out the other day. That one being list making.

List making is a great idea. It provides structure in an otherwise chaotic world. I need some structure in my somewhat otherwise chaotic world. So today I made that first list. Would it be cheating if I started out by listing my other 3 New Years Resolutions? Hey ya got to start somewhere.

So number one on the list was to DO SOMETHING NICE TO SOMEONE EVERY DAY. A good thing since I can be the ever reclusive asshole. I thought of my old neighbor friend Mary today whose dog was put to rest some time back(I really need to learn how to link to my own past blogs...help! ). Anyway with the ulterior motive of fulfilling resolution #1, I climbed Marys stairs to wish her a happy new year. No answer. OK, try again later.

On to #2(EACH DAY I WILL CLEAN AND/OR ORGANIZE MY APARTMENT) This is highly important and I think will go a long way towards making me feel better in general. This bachelor historically does not give a shit how messy his apartment is and only cleans when he has to and usually not even then. So today the kitchen counter tops witnessed a scrubbing. As did the stove and refrigerator. Even the microwave smiles now. But the night is young. Heck I may get down on hands and knees and scrub the kitchen floor next. What a fucking miracle that would be!

#3 has to do with WRITING EVERYDAY. I have a dream to write. And I have a home course on Copy writing which has received procrastination treatment in a not so good way. Today wanting to do that #3 on my highly uncoveted New Years resolutions list, I opened up the course and began again where I last left off. Feels good. Yeahhhh.

At this point I will pat myself on the back for doing today what I should already have been doing. I will even pat myself on the back for that 2 loads of laundry done which were not on any list, just sprawled out on the floor.

Maybe there is hope for this ole dog. Some new tricks perhaps?

Ohhhhh, before I blog off, I must tell you that before I made it back to Mary's to wish her a smiling Happy New Year, she knocked on my door and beat me to the punch. I did express extra wishes her way and smiled widely but....

...still, I feel the need to do something else. Maybe call all three kids tonight. They don't expect it on New Years Day...