Hello again...

It's time again to write. It's been a long time to be sure. Why the dry spell? Cause I had a dry spell. Personally I have been drying up since November but I recently dried up altogether. Since I last blogged here I have blogged elsewhere a few times. But I like this place better in terms of user friendliness. So here I go again.

Historically whenever I do things which are not good for me I do them too much and/or too long. Long ago I should have stopped my involvement in something that has been a roller coaster ride, to say the least. I am at fault for not getting off long ago. I stayed on the ride until I got sick from nausea due to the low turns it took. The ride became disgusting. I became disgusting. I did not respect boundaries which is something I normally do. I allowed myself to be strung along for a ride which was doomed to crash eventually. I knew this since November. Yet I rode.

However time brings clarity. Time shows each of our true colors. Good and bad. It all comes out eventually. I am not very proud of my behavior the past few months. But they say everything happens for a reason. And a very recent "everything" will make it easier to not get back on the ride. I may be tired of the roller coaster but beyond all of that it now disgusts me.