Fuck

 Didn't post the prior post which was an unfinished poem.  Too personal.

So, here we go again with more turmoil. 

It never ends. 

Never. 

I have cords under the skin of my left hand.

It's causing the fingers to curl up, especially at night.

Sometimes hurts like fuck to uncurl them. 

Rarely stops hurting at all.  

I see a hand surgeon on the 14th.  

Happy fucking Valentines Day.

 I must avoid another surgery if possible.  

My nurse told me it depends on me and how much pain and dysfunction I can handle.

Actually I can handle a lot.  

I've had this issue for years.

Covid-19 exacerbated it the past month. 

Fuck.