When I began this blog last July(4th I think) the purpose of it was to get myself to writing again. Write something, write anything. Within the context of a blog I saw it as more or less a diary of sorts in which I could express my thoughts and feelings, hopefully on a daily basis. Perhaps write the occasional poem. Writing poetry is where I really get off. It may not always come together as I want it to but occasionally it really floats my boat. Anyway since this is my blog I have done with it as I see fit including writing about a personal relationship from time to time. I am not sure airing certain things publically is a good thing or not. Perhaps it is unwise to blog about something so personal as I have the past week or so here. So for now I will refrain and write more generally or more cryptically.
So if something seems like it has gone missing that is because it has.
:)
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you gotta do what you gotta do to preserve your sanity. When my relationship ended I was in a big dilemna. How could I blog openly, as I like to do, even though I know "that guy" will be reading my blog? I was never one for blogging about the relationship anyway, but a lot of that was because I started blogging AFTER I was aware (and in denial) that the relationship was kind of hanging by a thread. If I blogged about the relaationship I would blog, then, about some of the misconceptions, misleadings (it's a noun now) that were in it. So for the most part I didn't write much about that. Still, when it ended, how could I write my thoughts and feelings knowing he was out there in cyber space observing my every word and thought? Not just him - my parents... you!... my friends?
But I decided the blog was for me - for my writing and to train myself to write unflinchingly. Everyone else could go fuck themselves.
I am sure some did.
But that is just how I made peace with the whole public forum that this is, but I had to think about it and work through some of my reluctance. I don't blog about everything. I hold fire a lot of the time. And I don't owe anyone any apologies for what I write or what I don't write. Neither, sir, do you.
Why didn't you capitalize "you" which begins your comment? You capitalized the other paragraphs. LOL!
Appreciate your thoughts. I really do. And I understand the bit about the blog being for me(in your case for you). I get that. But I am not sure about the everyone else can go fuck themselves bit. Even if I feel I have been wronged or hurt or whatever, I don't think I can detach myself from others to the extent of the "everyone go fuck themselves" place.
I may get angry or upset at times. An emotional storm may move through. And I do and it does. But in the normal course of things the truth is I really don't like hurting anyone whether I have been hurt or not. Whether an apology comes back my way or not(if I feel I have been wronged), all I can do is strive to keep my side of the street clean. I am not entirely sure I was keeping it clean by airing some things here. I'm really not.
Um Zooty, if we ALL took that attitude of "everyone else could go fuck themselves", wouldn't we ALL be fucked? I think we all would be fucked.
Maybe we all are fucked! LOL!
We can only hope.
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