It's amazing how one remembered memory can trigger another. This one goes back, way back in time while I was living at the first house, either in the late 50s or early 60s, I do not know. A vague memory albeit quite intense and the feeling is easily remembered. They say feelings of an event are sometimes easier remembered than the event itself. Think about it. Remembering how a person makes you feel or felt can somehow be more resonating than anything else, even how they look or looked. And if it is God oriented perhaps even more so.
Laying in bed at a very early age and gazing at the window on a dark night I witnessed something incredible. To set the context my bedroom was at the side of the house(all were) and faced the side of our neighbors garage. To look at or out the window at night was to see only darkness as I recall.
But on this night a bluish glow appeared around the window as if the window was framed in blue. It was incredibly beautiful and gave me a strong sense of peace. Could this be the occurrence of a young child's imagination? Perhaps. I am guessing I was four or five and such an age can have an active imagination. But...
...accompanying the surreal glow was a powerful sensation of being close to God. This feeling I remember most intensely. As much as I recall the blue glow(and I do) the intimate feeling of closeness to God is more vivid. Now, in those days I went to church with my family and hated it. Everything about it I hated. But this is something I treasured in that moment and each time it has been remembered in my lifetime(this is not the first recall) I treasure it.
Never been one to have a calm disposition and as a child all I remember are deep insecurities. Insecurities which would plague me all of my life. But I in that moment or moments I felt a deep calm and happiness. All was well with the world and me.
Thank you God for that memory.
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