A medical intermission...

 ...today was not a particularly good day. I'm going to jump ahead with some stuff because, well, I am.

Most of the next installment on God and I has been written so probably a posting tomorrow. But today first.

Pancreatitis has been an obstacle since late last year(actually since 2014) and recently an intense period ended. But today its mildly back.  Also back today was chemotherapy for the first time in about seven weeks(once a month is the current protocol). Illness and such had prevented it. Anyhoo, it's done internally and for the first time, the nurse couldn't get the catheter in. Her attempts at doing such weren't pleasant. They were not. My urologist will open me up next week and I was admonished at least three times to come mentally prepared for the procedure. I can hardly wait.

A couple of weeks ago I fainted for the first time in my life. I was peeing at the ungodly hour of 3 am and passed out. This resulted in a mild concussion by the grace of God. Heart issues have introduced themselves into my life so I'm now seeing a cardiologist. 

God has blessed me in so many ways this past year but at the same time I have become the proverbial old car with its continual breaking down and need for attention. Mortality. When one adds up the math the sum total doesn't add up. My days are numbered.  But I'm happy. I'd rather have numbered days of contentment and peace than a healthy body accompanied by what use to accompany it. I wouldn't trade it back.

Not looking for pity or attention out there from anyone who knows me or the vast majority of you who don't. Tonight's post is twofold. One, I felt the need to write and document today. Secondly, I wanted to provide some sort of context for my recent history. When I said 2025 was the year from hell, I wasn't kidding. I'm not sure if there will be a reprieve anytime soon but it doesn't matter. In the grand scheme of things it just doesn't matter. 

God bless you as HE has me.