No lifting of the heavy phone yet to call the therapist.
Been doing some other things which have been beneficial but no phone lift.
Dreams continue to destroy my sleep. Today I dreamed about my first ex. I could describe the dream in graphic detail but why? Oddly the kids were not in it, just the dogs. I have not felt love for her since before I left our marriage in 1999. Yet in this dream amidst our turmoil I decided to talk to her and was going to start with a hug(yuck lol). When I approached her I woke up.
I don't understand why so many dreams about her this year. I interpret this dream as an attempt to do the right thing in a long ago world within an impossible situation. I don't know.
Told Mom we've almost made it. We have. January 1st, 2023 we can consider ourselves as having made it. Still to come Christmas and Dad's birthdays. Could be challenging.
Happy moments. Look for the happy moments.
Look for the simple moments. Doing something for someone else distracts us from ourselves.
Looking for January 1st, 2023.
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