A history of God and Me part 17

So how do I follow all of this up? How do I catch all of this up to the present? I am struggling with how to approach the rest cause it is all so boring! LOL! But I will try anyway.

OK, I left the dark side, so to speak. I was living alone in a very lonely state. In the fall of 1999 I joined a local dating club which matched people up(blindly I must add). The real highlight of that experience was the dinner date in which my words consisted of "uh huh" and "yes" along with the occasional "yeah" and "I see". What does one do when one is with a yakker and one finishes their dinner first? They order desert in hopes of getting the flock out of there soon!

I had interests in various women at the twelve step group but none of those ever went anywhere. I kept finding out how if you want to find out how messed up you are, just get into a relationship with someone there! I tried other recovery groups in town who had other women. A highlight was an interest I developed with a girl at one of those other recovery groups in town. We went on a few dates. I finally believed she had in fact told me the truth one night about having dissociative identity disorder. She had.

Was attending church again but it just wasn't gelling. Same one I had attended since moving south in 1980. Although there were great people there and it was a good place, for some reason I just did not feel comfortable there. Various classes were tried but nothing connected. Attendance tapered off , then ceased.

Long had I avoided getting a personal computer because I used one at work and did not want to spend all of my free time on a pc. Us addictive personality types can foresee such behavior sometimes. But eventually I succumbed to the beast. Then I began the process of spending all of my free time on the pc.

Joined several online dating sites and met three women. One was really nice and we had a fantastic chemistry online and off. Ended up dating for several months although she was in another town. She was a deeply religious person(some would say or would prefer the term "spiritual") We talked a lot on the phone. We talked about all sorts of things but for some odd reason we didn't talk about God a whole lot. She and I did not work out when she told me she was seeing another man(who she eventually married)! Then I understood better why there just was not enough time for us.

I discovered the absolute blissful and delusional joy of chat rooms in 2000. Now here was a place where loneliness could be instantly dispelled. Here was a place where escapism could be instantly had. Sad. But true. And fun and entertaining. Just not a particularly healthy emotional environment. It was my kind of place! LOL! Chat rooms have been a part of my free time now for seven years, off and on.

One time off was in late 2003 to mid 2004 when I met a local lady with beautiful blue eyes. She was an atheist.