So...

...I have not smoked. Bottom line: I won't today. And today is all we have. Correct? It would not solve anything anyway. Life would still be the same. The issues that cause this desire within me would still be there. So why treat a symptom? And not only would it not solve anything it would only make matters worse. For to me to smoke is to run from whatever it is that is causing it.

A suggestion was just given me by a dear friend. She suggested I light a candle and look at it, smell it, play with it(no comment...lol), use it as a replacement for the smoke. What a great idea! Man oh man! It just so happens I have two candles that have been sitting around collecting dust for at least two years. And said dusty candles are unburnt. Yes. We are talking virginal candle territory now. We are talking light some fire tonight and feel it blaze in all its glory! Gonna be some candle cherry popping in the old dusty homestead tonight folks! And ohhh, they emit a smell...mmmmmmmmm...lol. I better calm down. This is too exciting.

So anyway I did not smoke and will not smoke today. So anyway I am going to light a candle(or two) later tonight when I get home from work. So anyway(I am stuck on saying anyway, please forgive me) as I light that candle or two tonight, it will also be lit for two. As I will be also lighting it for the sweet one who suggested it. A reminder of her too. An intriguing flame that draws me near with her feeling of warmth that permeates me.

May I borrow your lighter?